Sunday, May 8, 2011

Rain, Rain your Warmth on Me Mommy

She didn't get to say a word, but I allowed her to light her cigarette before telling her to get on the ground. So she sat -  just sat! I said come on now, lay down! The look on her face was a wonderful mixture of confusion, fear, excitement and too much pride to admit any of it. I couldn't help but smile and tried to control the laughter bubbling up through my chest. I knew she was going to get hit hard because I had quite a bit saved up. I held it another few seconds to demand her mouth be open and double check in the dark night that she had indeed obeyed my orders. Oh the fun of the sound all over her face, gurgling in her mouth and splashing all around her face, sprinkling - no now soaking her and the ground all around. The thrill completely took away any thought of the neighbors peeking curiously from their back windows. Besides, my giggles had been transformed to a wicked happy grin. I kissed a few drops of my taste from her cheek and moved her upstairs.

Baby, where did you miss? Oh dear, I must take care of this right away. Ah the enjoyment of pushing her around in the shower as my razor reached every angle, every unwanted hair. Baby girls are soft and smooth and I expect soft and smooth to be maintained. Yes Mommy makes me happy hearing it no matter how many times I hear it.

I enjoyed inspecting my body. Relishing much, cataloging much to improve as I go along. I decided I needed to taste everything. I tasted my pussy, my clitty, my titties, my crevice near my thigh, the cleavage under growing breasts... ah well that's that because baby is suddenly and obviously enjoying this too much! I sat on her face hard, happy and demanding. I reminded her that this was a test and that I would be giving her tips and requirements once I experienced her best. I tried to conceal the shocker at the quality of her best, but after a short yet ecstatic couple of minutes, the unexpected feeling surging through my body burst from my lips. I hung onto her hair with desperation as my head flung back and I howled at the ceiling. Suddenly I trusted my baby to unleash my passion. The hair I was clinging to now became my tool to obtain an escalation of these sensations. I yanked her face hard into the wetness of my pussy, knowing it must be suffocating, but loving it all the more. This created an excitement in her that was electric shock from her dedicated tongue straight into every nerve of my body as I flooded her with my release.

As I melted down across her body, I forced some kisses, tortured titties, and ignored the clitty that was visually throbbing with need. As my finger caressed my beautiful sensual pussy to begin more delightful playtime, she shrilled that she was going to cum. I immediately yanked all touch from her and sternly said NO, aghast at the thought that she would do such a thing without my consent. She wimpered as her cum dripped like a mini fountain from her stretched clitty. My obvious disappointment brought a distressed look to my baby's face - completely lace with guilt. I sighed again as with so many other times that I realize the work needing done. Then I begin scooping up every last drop of her velvety release and allowed her the joy of wiping it on her happy tongue and the remainder on her face. Ah yes, the work needing done. I cannot get far with these small fleeting moments. I can't wait until the day I can sweep her away for days without interupption in hopes of utterly breaking her of these torturous issues.

From Baby L>
right here wif my mouth wide open for you mommy, tat was soo exciting feeling your warmth over me and raining on me. you pushing your wetness down on my face.. more and more..
id like to be their now to have you force me back down to the ground again to allow you the total mental well being of knowing i am your bitch taking your golden nectar as i should.  and yes i did kinda run, you left me alone, i felt lost, not knowing what to do or not to do, i have always ran when given the oppurtunity at first, as i have never been left to clean myself up and it felt werid having you walk away to do something else. i so enjoyed you allowing me to lick your pussy and immy loving mommy tat i came to soon for you. but i loved you scoopin it up adn feeding it to me, soooo tasty.  your harshness is exactly what i need, and more of it. i can learn to give myself to you totally, in and out of the house, yet i prefer and will look to you for guidance on when to speak or not. and i do miss having your worn panties on me, feeling so dirty, and yet part of you is very refreshing.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Eating Mommy

My baby,
Appreciate your mommy's unique qualities and tell her what makes her special. Mama’s are a good deal more verbal than you, especially during love-making. They also respond more to verbal love, which means, the more you talk to her, the easier it will be to get her off. So all the time you're petting and stroking her beautiful pussy, talk to her about it. When she is done hearing you talk, she'll keep you from talking.
You don’t wanna touch her clit because you have to work up to that. Before she becomes aroused, her clit is too delicate to be handled. Approach her pussy slowly.
Mommy loves to be teased. The inner part of her thigh is her most tender spot. Lick it, kiss it, make designs on it with the tip of your tongue. Come dangerously close to her pussy, then float away. Make her anticipate it. Now lick the crease where her leg joins her pussy. Nuzzle your face in between her legs. Keep your face smooth for Mommy so that you are prepared at all times to please her or her friends. Brush your lips over her slit without pressing down on it to further excite her. After you've done this to the point where Mommy is bucking up from her seat and she's straining to get more of you closer to her, then put your lips right on top of her slit. Kiss her, gently, then harder. Now use your tongue to separate her pussy lips and when she opens up, run your tongue up and down between the layers of pussy flesh. Gently spread her legs more with your hands. Everything you do with Mommy before eating must be done gently. Tongue-fuck her. This feels define. It also teases the hell out of her because by now she wants some attention given to her clit.
See if her clit has gotten hard enough to peek out of it's covering. Lick hard now and press into her skin. Gently pull the pussy lips away and flick your tongue against the clit, hood covered or not. Do this quickly. This should cause her legs to shudder. When you sense she's getting up there toward orgasm, make your lips into an O and take the clit into your mouth. Start to suck gently and watch your Mommy’s face for her reaction. If she can handle it, begin to suck harder. If she digs it, suck even harder.
Go with her. If she lifts her pelvis into the air with the tension of her rising orgasm, move with her, don't fight her. Hang on, and keep your hot mouth on her clit. Don't let go. She SHOULD be saying: 'Don't stop. Don't ever stop!'
Most stop too soon.
There's another thing you can do to intensify your Mommy’s pleasure. You can finger-fuck her while she's enjoying your clit-licking talents. Before, during or after. She'll really like it. In addition to the erogenous zones surrounding her clit, Mommy has another extremely sensitive area at the roof of her vagina - you know where this is. This is what you rub up against when you're fucking her. Don't be so hard, just drive her nuts.
Take two fingers. One is too skinny and three is too wide and therefore can't get deep enough (this only applies when eating her pussy). Make sure they're wet so you don't irritate her skin. Slide them inside, slowly at first, then a little faster. Fuck her with them rhythmically. Speed up only when she does. Listen to her breathing. She'll let you know what to do.
If you're sucking her clit and finger-fucking her at the same time, you're giving her far more stimulation than you would be giving her with your cock alone. So you can count on it that she's getting high on this. If there's any doubt, check her out for symptoms. Mommy is unique. Get to know her symptoms and you'll be a more sensitive lover. When she starts to have an orgasm, for heaven's sakes, don't let go of that clit. Hang in there for the duration. When she starts to come down from the first orgasm, press your tongue along the underside of the clit, leaving your lips covering the top. Move your tongue in and out of her cunt. If your fingers are inside, move them a little too, gently though, things are extremely sensitive just now.
If you play your cards right, you'll get some multiple orgasms this way. Mommy (and any other woman) stays excited for a full hour after she's had an orgasm.
After you've made her come, serve her in other ways. Stroke her body, caress her breasts. Lick her feet. Clean her house. Cook her dinner.
Take your time, practice often, attend to everything.

Remember, you are mine. Say it. Over and over. Mommy can't wait until you KNOW it. Looking forward to the multiple orgasms next time.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Dirty Panties and Insecurities

May 6th, 2011
I started the day, or rather ended yesterday (1:00 am) by allowing baby to practice her patience. She seemed especially excited to send Mommy correspondence but had to await the address. It was adorable and I relished it. When I woke later in the morning I told her to think of me in her panties all day. She must imagine her tongue inside of me. I told her that it is time to get her ready, lubed and stuffed. I reminded her she must strive to love me more than I could love her. Baby only said a feeble yes so Mommy had to enforce her place by strictly instructing baby to SAY IT. She meekly says - yes to all things Mommy.

Baby sends me things to read. Sometimes I enjoy it tremendously and sometimes I find something better for her to read. Today she asks me with that sweet insecurity if I enjoyed my reading - and do I have a better understanding; an understanding that will allow me to have all of her for life. I see that in her insecurity she has already forgotten her place, so I deftly remind her that baby's only concern is keeping Mommy for life. I tell her to order the butt plug today that I want. That should have been the end of it, but fortunately Mommy likes a challenge.

My baby displayed her insecurity AGAIN by asking me if this is what I desire. I explain to baby that this is what she desires and for Mommy it is fun. Mommy cares for baby and I must be careful because I care for her. I mistakenly admitted to her that I was scared of myself, knowing how deep this would could become for me - far past fun. Baby loses her place again telling me - then it's not right and has to be what I need and desire. She goes so far as to tell me that when I stop being scared of myself then I would need it. I take a deep breath at her sweet and insecure ignorance. As usual baby, you don't understand. You really need to be put down and stop trying to control the situation. That's exactly what has always messed with me. I am done with it! Baby is scared and doesn't even confide in Mommy about it like she should. So, the last straw has been drawn as I tell her that she will just have to be shown, just have to learn the hard way. I dig in my heels and suddenly become delirious yet ridiculously calm all at once. Finally I've truly had it with trying to protect the wrong way. I'm done being gentle and hiding who I am. Don't get me wrong, I know how to nurture my baby like no one else, but this now has to be balanced with discipline. Harsh discipline to counteract the damage done over the years with my baby.

Like a cool rain after a scorching hot day, baby tells mommy... maybe you are right. Aaah the first real step. Well, prepare yourself doll, because I AM RIGHT. Stop trying to control everything. You will NEVER get what you want that way. This is gonna take more than three days.

Baby, you will learn to dress as I please, do chores as I please, orally service me as I please. You will only orgasm as I alone see fit. You will learn to be ready for me. You will become disciplined to eat as I instruct while we are apart. You will learn this or you will LOSE me. Understood.

My assignment for my baby today: 
Today you will stop by the house and put on my unwashed panties. I will take pictures of you in my panties so that if you ever choose to disobey me, I may have recourse. You will wear them all day tomorrow and return them unwashed this weekend.

 I was so pleased when my sissy not only told me yes ma'am, but also thank you. She confirmed an understanding of my assignment and that satisfied me as well. It is hard to get my point across to my baby sometimes, but it is always fun to make sure she understands in the end. Then she did as I had asked and told me what her diet consisted of today. She needs to held accountable in taking care of my body and figure.

Baby L. came to the house as instructed and even told me when she was going to be a few minutes late. She was polite and respectful in front and to my guests. I was cooking dinner so I threw the chicken on the grill and ran upstairs. I was stripping of the teal colored panties I had worn all day when I heard miss sissy coming up the stairs and calling me by my name. So the moment she made it to the top step, she was instructed to remove her pants so that she could display my panties for my pleasure. She nearly started arguing with me since there were guests in the house, but once I quickly shut the door, she quickly shut her mouth and my smile quickly found my face. She waywardly stood there looking embarrassed but oh so sexy with her head tilted to the side as red creeped up her cheeks and eye contact was forced. My smile turned to a stern look as the smell of my chicken crept up the stairway. Ever so quickly she stripped and awkwardly hurried to get her long sexy legs into the bright colored stretchy lace. POSE, I demanded as my camera pointed straight to her face. To my utter shock and exquisite delight, she began posing left to right with angles that completely betrayed any possible humiliation seen only seconds before. My baby came to life in those teal panties filled with the smell of my wet pussy. With a grand finale, she turned and bent over just enough for me to get the best angle. As warmth flooded the lips of my pussy and a tingling sensation attacked my titties, I ordered her to remain in the pose as if for another photo. I snapped the camera without looking at the picture, enjoyed every inch exposed around the lacy thong. As she began to rise, I couldn't resist but to run my hands over her bare flesh and finish with a little slap. The sound of my hand against her warmth made me remember I wasn't breathing and I ran to attend to my chicken and guests, leaving her there to fend for herself with the pants. I was very careful that my guests couldn't suspect anything by my demeanor. Baby came down  to bid goodbye, and slipped through the kitchen to give me a squeeze as I was busy with my hands. She pressed her cheek to mine briefly as I imagined her whispering goodbye Mommy. It was fleeting but reminded me of my sweet encounter that was only the beginning of ... well my guests were wondering too because I couldn't get that silly grin off my face. But don't tell my baby. She needs to work hard to please Mommy.

Later in the evening my baby asks me if I enjoyed and also thanked me for allowing her to wear my panties. I told her that I enjoyed very much and was very proud of her. I then instructed her that she must wear the panties tomorrow and will ask Mommy permission to do so again. She sweetly says that she will all day as I told her to - the sames ones Mommy.

Baby will come tomorrow night so that I can reward her for her obedience and teach her what else pleases me. First though, I will go out and enjoy myself while she takes care of my household needs. She asks me if I will go out and find someone, but I remind her that she does not have time to be worrying about these things right now as she needs to focus on her duties.

Yes mommy. Ah these words soothe me inside. That's my baby. One day maybe you will be my baby girl. Wet diapies and all Mommy? Oh, so much more.

I reward baby by sending a picture of one pose she gave me earlier. The attached message notes that there is some potential and much work. Ah the little things that need to be constantly reinforced as baby simply says K. No baby, your response next time will be thank you mommy.  

A slow beginning to sissyhood

To my baby:
May 6, 2011

I often fantasize about dressing you up and holding you down while I do whatever I want. I often fantasize about another man with us. I often fantasize about bringing a woman into the room and forcing her to help me take care of you while you are tied and gagged and lock and key on my equipment. You don't know me. You don't know me well enough to know what I want and enjoy giving it to me. That's wrong and it needs to change.

I have some panties for you here and I will get more for you. You can have them as long as i make sure they fit right. We don't need to be starting anymore bad habits with poor fitting lingerie. You take the time to shop for the suit, but I must see it before you wear it.I want you to be smoother than you are. I want to you start shaving but it pleases me to watch, so you must come when I ask and shave for me. You will do it the right way, slow and sensual. You are not a man and have no right to do anything rushed and hard. You will begin practicing special care for your skin so that you become soft and smooth. You must tell me what your diet consists of so I can correct you. You will learn that you will be punished when you do not take care of your body for my pleasure. I will let you imagine the punishments I have waiting for you so that your imagination might put some fear into you, and increase the speed of your commitment. We will find shoes for you to practice in. My baby girl will learn to walk gracefully and with poise. I tire of my frustration with you and will resolve this. I need to taste your pussy every day and let you feel my soft fingers inside of you.

 You will learn to feel sexy without the use of anything but me. Then I will decide what to do from there. Bad habits often begin when you are too lazy to do things the right way, and you are skipping steps. I am the one you answer to, not those in the past. You do not follow the rules of your past life. You will feel new feelings, sensations and desires. You will stop what you are doing and let me have you the way you are every day so that I can feel the difference every day of your transformation. Do I need to tell you what will happen if you don't?

Finally, you must control your energies to work smarter in order to get more work finished in a smaller amount of time. You need much training so you must commit time to this.  

You are MINE. Start getting used to the idea.

My sissy is learning to talk

My baby is learning to talk to me. Telling me her desires, wants, needs and pleasures.

My baby tells me that I am right, and that I know her. All the times when I have pulled her hair like my slut, talked dirty to, rough with, pushing and kissing and nibbling - to my baby those are some of the moments that mentally she was letting go totally. My baby is so sensitive, I have stopped there in the past. I really held back until it drove me crazy. She tells me she really thought I was going to push even harder in and out of the bed, daily. I thought that I was too. I though that I would burst with the pain of restraining. Sometimes I did burst and it hurt my baby. Now my baby opens to me saying she knows it takes a lot of time, but as she says, I am strong. Baby says its what has turned her on about me from the first day. She acknowledges that it will take much correction, much forcefulness to break her of bad habits. It will probably take some embarrassment and humiliation, or the threat thereof. My baby tells me she knows I would do it, as I have done things in the past to prove that. She tells me she thrives off of my strength and begins asking permission to wear my lingerie.

Suddenly, I am set free. I am tired of fighting what I want in hopes of protecting this sensitive sissy. She is only the way she is because those in her past have not created what I need. Terrible and lazy habits have set in. She will be broken and for the same reason I held back - because I love my baby.

I am told that she is working daily to lose my tummy as I've instructed so that she can be really sexy for me. She has watched the other girls who turn me on. She knows what I like and desires to fulfill it and THAT is the first step in pleasing me. I love her tummy - don't care about her tummy, but even more I love the reason she wants to lose it - to please me. I will enjoy every day that her clitty lengthens with the shrinking of her middle - exposing the beautiful flesh I love to tease. Her energy level will increase so that she may please me longer, harder and broader. She will be able to work all day, do her chores for me in the afternoon, and submit to me morning and night.

I demand and enjoy my baby talking to me. Telling me every detail. Today she only says - I do love to please you so much, it's all I have wanted to have you share with me for the last 2 years. I need you to absolutely control me until you are satisfied. But its been a long while and I have bad habits that I have picked up, as you know .. I am not going to break them over night, but you know this. its just like my pussy is going to have to be used gently and trained again to take you as you please and when you please.

love always

am I to be your baby girl?

Ah my baby love. You may work in hopes of being my baby girl. I love hearing you give me words and actions of feigned submission. No not feigned, because you are being sincere and you are trying. But you do not know that I know how much you have and have not given me. You may not believe that I will take it from you.  You are mine. You belong to me. Soon, you will know what it feels like to KNOW it. You won't make decisions without knowing my approval is in place. You will protect my property. You will love your Mommy.